chapter 4 : seasons
SENSUAL HEALING AND RECOVERY CORPORATION
SPECIAL CASE FILE FOR REMEMBRANCE PATIENT ZERO
20 DEC 2019 / 21:15
PRE-SHOW REPORT / MADAME MISTRESS DOE
BACKGROUND
SHARC has assigned me to Clinic C to investigate an anomaly.
Patient known as ST4G has shown signs of a remembrance. This is the first case of its kind but was not unexpected. Dr. Megalodon told us it would be inevitable due to the nature of the work.
SHARC has determined that my skills, expertise, track record, and discretion are the best fit for Patient’s continued treatment.
SHARC’s initial remote diagnostic has determined the remembrance to be very minor, and the new Amnesium formula will be powerful enough to bring him back to balance.
SHOW RESEARCH
SHARC recommends four (4) vignettes for tomorrow’s Show based on four (4) case studies of excerpts obtained from Patient’s private writings, which were gathered swiftly and without detection.
CASE STUDY ONE - AUTUMN 2010
[18 sept 2010] Stories about second chances after touching on something wicked.
[19 sept 2010] Awkward and sad at the graveside, i can’t take it.
[21 sept 2010] Crazy nightmares about ridiculous stuff.
[22 sept 2010] Staring at goats.
[30 sept 2010] Work sucks, man, it’s all about the environment you create. Other people can be productive for you.
[01 oct 2010] Towed. One of the most magical nights in the forest tho.
[03 oct 2010] <Redacted> gets emotional when we talk about <redacted>.
[04 oct 2010] It’s a rainy day.
[14 oct 2010] Resources are wearing thin.
[20 oct 2010] <Redacted> is freaking out and i don’t know how to deal.
[21 oct 2010] Feelin really shitty but oh well. We get to the bottom but still quite depressing and sad.
[22 oct 2010] Still torn up.
[25 oct 2010] It’s all documented and i guess it was too much. Just a migraine and a crazy lady walking a dog with a TV inside it or something.
[28 oct 2010] Thinking about structure.
[29 oct 2010] Trying to avoid the puke on the floor.
[30 oct 2010] A wave of new memories passing down through my head / As though I know completely that there’s nothing to be said / About the habits I’ve been making or the damage I’ve been taking / For the fire I’ve been harboring here. Crazy, right? Oh dear.
[31 oct 2010] <Redacted> has to leave.
SHARC SUMMARY
I’ve been having nightmares spinning round my head somehow I know completely that there’s nothing to be said about the habits I’ve been making or the damage I’ve been taking for the fire I’ve been hiding here.
ANALYSIS
Patient associates joy and discovery with neglect and impending tragedy, leaving him in more pain then when he started.
We must present this theme in the most extreme way possible to achieve an effective response.
VIGNETTE
Adonis will be ornately adorned and adored in an ensemble opener.
Mikro will follow behind, led by leash, emaciated.
Note: Mikro has refused sustenance for two weeks to prepare for their role.
Mikro will lead the ensemble in a surprise ploy to murder Adonis, initializing Empathoconvulsive Therapy (ECT).
Note: Adonis is aware of his fate and is grateful for this role, as he knows it is his duty to SHARC and Country.
CASE STUDY TWO - SPRING 2013
[31 oct 2010] It feels like my life is just one big train wreck after another. A spark, a moment of inspiration, even a small triumph or two will provide that motivation, that optimism, that willingness to succeed, that encouragement to keep trying.
[31 oct 2010] In a way it’s a good thing. Heartbreak always equals inspiration. Inspiration equals creation. And creation, in my case, breeds success. Let’s hope i can jump in the deep end with confidence and the consciousness of my own buoyancy. If i happen to drown, there will be no mermaid to rescue me.
SHARC SUMMARY
We must remove the hesitation from our awareness of the infinite within to elevate our consciousness and turn heartache into inspiration into creation til creation brLiEnTgS us rest.
ANALYSIS
Patient tracks his existence through remembering how he was feeling.
Patient sees emotional anguish as essential to his work.
Patient expresses rescue complex.
SHARC has challenged us to present his most extreme expression of these qualities ten (10) seasons after he wrote them down to induce Mind-Body Paralysis (MBP).
VIGNETTE
We will present scenes from his graduation day as he slowly realizes they’re about him.
CASE STUDY THREE - SUMMER 2009
[31 oct 2010] But the accomplishments are too small, the flames too weak, the distractions of pleasure and love and release far too taxing for any genuine career or plan to be set forth. The flow i go with has no grip on reality. Maybe it’s because of the people in my life. I am surrounded by people who love me, “mentors,” and friends. Those who love me always end up disappointed in me.
SHARC SUMMARY
The flow I go with has no grip on reality and your disappointment with the flow I go with has no grip and it comes as no surprise.
ANALYSIS
Patient sees his creative achievements and the alienation of his loved ones as inextricably linked.
In order to induce Sedation over Memory Activation (SOMA), we must lead him to the most extreme example of this, which SHARC has determined occurred five (5) seasons before he wrote this excerpt.
VIGNETTE
In a new experiment, SHARC has elected to replace SOMA with a different condition they are code-naming R3K4L1BR4T10N.
To induce this new condition, SHARC will share Patient’s room’s security camera’s footage with him from when SHARC obtained his private writings, which will reveal not only the gathering of his files but what other necessary actions they had to take in his room that evening to protect him as well.
CASE STUDY FOUR - WINTER 2011
[26 jan 2011] Mathematics of resonant bodies / syncing machines / element of surprise + solution (clever) / omission as a generative force / gift of performance - leaving out rehearsal / art - always be doing two (2) things at the same time / how you do something is what you mean / for a thing to be art, it must be represented by what it is not / unexpected virtuosity / a great work must contain its own critique
SHARC SUMMARY
How you do something is what you mean and sometimes as you do something what you mean is what you do sometimes has something to do with how you don’t.
ANALYSIS
Patient is inquisitive and curious.
We must play with these qualities through our final interactive act, in which we will rouse his sensual desires.
VIGNETTE
The effects of R3K4L1BR4T10N are unknown, as Patient ST4G is the first human subject.
SHARC will be relying on my skills, expertise, track record, and discretion to take appropriate action in response to his reaction to the treatment.